Am I ready for mommyhood?

It's my daughter's 1 month birthday! Time has past by so quickly and I ponder the sacrifices I've made and the sacrifices yet to make.My small Pacsun purse has been replaced by a 20 lb diaper bag, my spontaneous personality with an always prepared attitude. Sometimes I feel tied down to be honest.. Shouldn't I be cooing in adornment over my little bundle of joy? I feel bad bad because I know I will never go back to living the way I did before, carefree, but I feel even worse realizing how selfish I'm being.. ..am I being selfish? A mother should have an unbreakable bond with her child from birth... right? Don't get me wrong.. I love her and all.. but I just don't feel that "bond".. I feel worse just thinking about it. My husband and I are drifting apart and I try to remember that it's not her fault but sometimes it's so hard. I get mad at him when he doesn't get up when she cries at night or when he just sticks a pacifier in her mouth when she's hungry. We fight because I get so mad but I have reason.. ..right? I understand that he works hard all day but when he comes home its just eat then sleep. He never has time for me or the baby. Sundays are the only day he doesn't work and all he wants to do is sleep. He hasn't spent any time with his daughter besides changing her and sometimes cuddling with her for a little bit.. It's been a month!! Well I guess until Daddy gets his shit straight it's just Mommy and Daughter in this family portrait.. :\